Ever had an enemy who was there, pretty much, 24/7? One who didn't modify, even after they were well aware of the wrong they were doing? I have. I live with this one person; this one person knows me better than anyone; this one person has been with me through thick and thin; through it all.. and hates me for it. This person and I are the worst of enemies, and with no way to abdicate them, I seem pretty much doomed for.
          While all my friends tell me not to hate this person.. tell me not to change this person I hate so much, I can only see the necessity of doing so. This person I hate's not perfect- they drink, they torture their selves mentally, they make it easy to lose friends, they have a foul personality that everyone seems to love except for me; this person hates their parents and gives people a reason to hate them; this person is rude to their closest of friends; this person sets their self up for challenges they cannot face; this person's hopes are so high, that anything good surprises them; this person is completely fucked up. This person is bound to die one day unless they stop being who they are. This person has no reason to live except for the future ahead of them, which may not even happen. This person, you will soon hate.

          This person is clumsy, and doesn't get A's in school. This person was too occupied drawing "fuck everyone" on their margin, that they forgot to hand up the sixty million assignments due for the term. This person's life is ran by disorders and other people's two cents of what they should be. This person, instead of caring for their friends, wishes to only be happy for more than a month on end. This person wishes they'd stop eating, so that they could start the revolution of not hating their body. This person is so deep into their own heart, that they block out every relationship that could've been. This person doesn't want a perfect life at all, but they wish they wouldn't stab holes in their legs for fun. This person demands too much, and relies on all the wrong people, setting their self for a major let down by people who never cared. This person puts all of their heart into everything they do, they try at school, and fail miserably, with only the memory to remind their self of how bad it sucked. This person still, after all the times they promised me they'd do it better the next time around, manage to fail, but tell no one other than me. This person would much rather be friends with people who treat them like shit scrapped off of their shoe, than sit alone and bored, with everyone thinking they don't have friends. This person would much rather have the world believe everything's perfectly 100% than let the rest of the world believe all they want to do is cry alone in their bed, holding a butcher knife instead of someone else's hand. This person would much rather fill their screen name with sad words written by their self, that others believe are songs, than confront everyone on how alone and sad they are. This person would much rather swear at someone who's said something bad about them, than let them know they think the same about their self. This person knows depression is so clique, but still, can't seem to stay content for a week straight. This person will never like their selves, no matter how conceited and happy they seem. This person could write an A4 page on why they don't like their selves, and it wouldn't even come close to the real thing.
This person is me, and I'm sorry for that.