| | I'm terrified. Scared to fucking death about this year. I'm shaking at the thought that this year of school might be even half as bad as last year was.
I almost died several times, on purpose.
I lost almost every single friend I've ever had.
I had the worst lessons with the worst bunch of people who just sit and critisize me.
I've had a worser life last year than any of my friends. Any of them put together.
I got ditched because my friends believed some Gay Goth Vampire that I said something which I didn't.
I got the lowest grades of anyone I know.
I got insulted, hit on, and verbally abused by teachers.
I've had more physocological tests for me apparently having bipolar and/or schizophrenia than ten hands could count.
I've had to work every single ounce of my existance to just keep some friends who at the end of the day, make me feel like an awkward piece of shit they scraped off their shoe.
My wiritng went so fucking down-hill, and I've constantly been shaking as the result of nervousness, therefore my photography hasn't been good either.
And everyone tells me "this year will be better."
I can't. Litterally cannot. Can't. I cannot. I won't be able to have another day of how bad last year was, and still be able to breathe.
No body gets it. Nobody had such a bad year as I did last. Which really shits me off when people seem to need a fucking vaccation to get away from their fucking perfectly happy life.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, no one was online to hear my fucking cry-outs, so hey! I spoke to a fucking computer. |
| | Posted 1/18/2008 12:36 AM - 44 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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